ummm... im new here... well kinda not new..
i have posted on this blog thingy before... but that was a few months ago...

this is kinda different now that i'm forced to post now haha...
but i'm open to new stuff... it aint bad so far...

maybe i should introduce myself to everyone?
haha maybe not...
just call me

hmm
nothin catchy comes to mind, but
call me whatever you may i'll respond to the creative stuff

newho
the weekend was fun
spent it with a lot of friends
a few of which are trying to get into dancing again
its hard though i tell you...

in high school when Jon and i was on a dance team
we were forced to come together and practice... and it was cool
now a days... just rounding up the guys is a task in itself...
sigh...

not to mention that the tryouts for the show we're going for is this saturday
*gasp*
impossible!

but neway the other guys seem optimistic
(i don't haha) i'm just worn out i guess...
sometimes i really believe in dancing...
and it hurts when others don't share my passion

this time around i believe i've turned it against them...
and i'm the one who is not putting in my all...
a guess a part of me wants to show them
how they've made me feel the last few times
when they flaked on me... and i even tried to beg them to dance...
now that theyre heading the show...
i dont feel like dancing...

hmm its a bit hypocritical to act in that manner,
its that teaching them a lesson would be a great excuse...
but also doing the routine despite how they've acted in the past...
despite how tired i am...

would actually be a better lesson...
taking the route they didn't take...

but we'll have to see cuz umm im really tired haha
maybe i'll feel like dancing when i go to the practice tonight (if i go)

(wow... its been only a few minutes and i wrote so much already... this kinda stuff just flows doesnt it)

what else is going on in life for me...
playing the single life...
it seems forever i've been doing this...

but i'm actually learning to deal with it...
i'm optimistic about Jon's view on relationships when he tells me that

... its hard to explain thourougly, but basically

in terms of bfs/gfs and being single
he says that just be single for now...
whyso you ask? why date...

all the worthwhile benefits from dating, can easily be found in healthy friendships...
this is true...

i have many friends who i can call on to just chat all night...
if i need someone to go out on a movie with i call friends...
even dinners are good w/ friends

i know i know... theres this person out there asking...
"i mean friendship is okay... but theres only certain things that a bf and gf can do that friends cant"
but think about it...
what is that? physical aspects of relationships?

i do believe... that most of the time,
those shake bonds rather than build them...

getting physical too early in a relationship...
pms (premaritalsex)
getting bored because the relationship is all physical...
cheating...

i mean sure its nice...
and its a nice feeling


a feeling that makes u feel so good
makes you feel like your in love...

then a month later u break up with your girl/guy
and then were are you at...
are you still in love...
do you miss that feeling

a feeling that goes to serves one person alone
yourself...
i mean thats what its all about then? getting the most you can?


this mindset is really hard to explain actually
i highly recommend the book
"i kissed dating goodbye"
by joshua harris

this is where this perspective on dating comes along
its a very good book... i myself could not put it down
...

in summation,
my love life is steady
im blessedly single
i have a lot of friends
and in the future
when i find that one girl meant for me
sent by God...
i will be able to say...
i'm devoting my all to you
like i've never devoted to any other person in the world

i guess you could say
i'm not a relationship kind of person
a rare bread haha...
but its kewl i get a long with a lot of people
and i do have a lot of fun...

"prude" whats that hahaha...
sometimes though...
it gets lonely...
when everyone seems busy
except for you...

sigh...
but im glad that those moments are few and far between...
nothing in this world is truely easy...
if it was, what would its worth be...


ack... i've been her for a while...
ima go see you all later

(that sounds so dorky...)