Vacation over!

ahh... robby's right, i just can't stay away
but that one week of rest was interesting...

plus my anonymouse poster seemed to get busy all of a sudden haha,
but good job on the posts i guess

maybe for future references ill have guest bloggers when i feel in a need of another vacation
*(feeling lazyyyy)

before we start this off i want to give a lil shout out to my best friend and biggest fan...
lets start in prayeR

Dear Jesus...
oh mann oh mann... thank you for so much this weekend...
i don't even know where to start...
these last couple of weeks have been real tough for me for different reasons...
ever since the lft i've been going through a lot of doubts...
not in you though... but in me

it seemed like every week that i had to go through another trial
it came to such an extent that i would end up real distraught and broken on mondays...

thanks though through ur mighty graces...
each monday you've helped me through my trials
through my really good friends
and i ask you to bless them for me
as i continue to pray for them as well...

this weekend was really something...
on one level... the topic at Slc's on friday was really good...
in terms on how i was feeling lately...

it's like your literally poking me in the back and saying
"Jon... i'm making this as clear as possible... just pay attention"

and i did because everything at that time seemed to be pointing me towards that message...
and i did listen... and i finally felt at peace...

in my line of work for you oh Lord...
i've felt the struggle in myself ...
the doubt that ... "how can i even begin to comprehend myself to be a saint for you..."
or... "i'm really un worthy ... i can't even follow simple directions"
or "... im a failure"

but i am forever grateful for this weekend
haha for smackin me over the head with all this reassurance that ur always merciful...
and you'll always love me no matter what...

its not how many times i fall... its how many times i get back up...

"a saint is a sinner who never stops trying"

so Lord... i guess i'm going to ... get up... and start trying again...
knowing that u've already forgiven me if i fall... and fall... and fall
which we know is a possibility...

at any rate...
dude... ur awesome...
i want to thank you for my mom...

i love her with all my heart...
but sometimes i regret not spending more time with her
due to my activities...

i want to let her know...
that she matters to me...
and she's number one on my list here on earth...

... its not only that...
lately her and i have been getting a long...

but moreso the more i have you in my heart...
the more i desire to please her...

i pray Lord...
that someday...
she may totally understand everything...

about you...
about me...
and about herself...

if i surrender myself for this purpose oh Lord...
take control of myself and
may your will be done...


oh Lord, merciful Lord, Glorious Lord... i raise up all my highest praises for this weekend... and all these trials that i went through prior to it all... really i can say that you're always listening to me... and always watching over me... thanks oh Lord... and keep those in my prayers safe... and always close by... so i can be there for them as they have been there for mee...

Amen