that's enough of that poetry stuff for now

i think i'll start getting into conflict if i keep writing about past females in my life...
i need to stop thinking about the past and at least focus on the present
after all i did make a new years resolution...

something that i should be keeping...

i've decided to swear off girls for a while...

*pause for shock*

no seriously...
i did the same thing during my senior year in high school
(of course it didnt last long as three months into that year i met
melody... and jennifer and etc etc)

and it was fine for a while...
but i have a good reason to pursue that same goal again...

i do believe that i have much yet to grow in my life...
before i can actually consider relationships...
in essence getting into a relationship now would be like the equivalent of

giving a speech
without writing one...

basically... i need to get myself ready for relationships first...
and this year i'll take some time off...
find myself (yet again)
and really try the opposite of what
i've been up to the past couple of years...

*this sure sounds all crazy...
but i promised someone that i would...
and its important that i keep that promise...

*at any rate all this talk about relationships stops now...
i have an interesting life after all...
i can blog about something else now and then...

lets see i can be political!
...
maybe next time...
i can give good advice!!
...who would listen...
comic relief?
people would die of boredome...
haha... i'm trying my best not to feel not worthwhile...

i'll fake it and pretend im just being modest...
but at any rate... go 2005...