Yo MaNn this is what im talking aBout!!

another reminiscing session for this year
i went back over my archives this year and found one of my old poems i wrote
this one i really liked and i have the most sincerest wish that i could write like this again haha...
its a bit sad... but it had a romantic side =P

the original post can be found here

My heart it calls

it fears if i dont do something soon it may lose you

for i am a lover who has found his heart ready, but

when i think of you there is both a longing and a fear

for you are the one i know
who teases my heart so

i feel for you feelings felt very rarely and very true
and that makes me vulnerable to you

my heart is readily given
readily given to heartbreak

i don't want to not trust you...
but i have no choice...

though i am a lover who sees beyond imperfection
i am a lover who cannot see beyond pain...
and heartache

you will hurt me
i know it...
as it has already happen
and i can only protect myself
to prevent it from happening again

i long to give my heart to you fully and freely as i once did...
but the stigma of the past
pains me so

i feel the urge to act now before u are forever taken away from me
but i am paralyzed on this spot...

it is the worst torture
i am standing next to you
watching you leave me
into the hands of another
i reach out but draw my hand back quickly...

a tear silently falls as i hold my feelings in
i wish u would know what i felt
i wish i could tell...

i wished u would know that i could care for you with all my heart
devote all the love a person can ever devote to another

i wished u knew that i am a scared little boy...
did you know courage is charactersitic i do not lack...
but fear of pain... reduces me to this

i fear u most of all...
one who sees me in all
one who holds me in all my fragileness...

guard my heart...