i miss mae...

not in a sad depressive emo type of miss...
but in a smilling nostalgic kinda way...

she was really good in my life... i felt like i was a kid again
and nothing could touch me while i was in her world..

she did a lot for me that kid did...
but im doing a great disservice to her by not remembering all the lessons she thought me...

about striving to be holy, and about giving oneself up to our Lord, through victimhood...

truth be told... her leaving was almost catastrophic in a sense that i now have more questions than ever and even less answers available...

but even long ago i resolved... that i cant rely on her for everything... i must move forward in my own journey in life... and find the answers on my own accord...

but i will always look back on the days that i knew her... and how happy i was in those days...
just to have a friend... to smile with, to talk with, to pray with... and to pray about...

she was important to me... and i feel like i've lost a great source of light in my life...
but as long as i have these nostalgic memories of her...

i think im going to be okay...





happy bday tomorrow mae...