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~//>Stream of Conciousness

i miss my friends....
after high school its a different game

i miss having them around...
i miss not being alone...


yet i miss my friends i feel like
when i am around them
that i cannot stand it...

why...perhaps
deep down inside
i know it is not the same...

i cannot explain what i'm feeling
but it is tragic indeed
i wish things were simpler...

i wish things were like the old days...
but
if one knows me
they would be surprised by that mindset...

i myself contradict my thoughts on this subject matter...

it is futile to live in the past
one must neither try to spend time on the future...

the present is where live happens...
and that is where one shall devote their energy too...

"to say something is easier than to actually do it"

they say, you can talk the talk
but can you walk the walk...



a few people i know of are currently undergoing boot camp with the marines...
it is certain that these few CAN walk the walk...

i should also emphasize the word few...

there was a slight time where i have thought about joining them...
i had a feeling that it would be a beneficial experience to go through

one to learn from...and to grow from...

i do not as much regret not going...
maybe i had feared i might have failed...

but when i look back...
i wonder
what would have changed if i had...








i guess that's what is on my mind at the moment...
CHANGE...

i dislike change
but it is inevitable...

everything changes...
the person who doesnt change along everything else

is left behind...and lost...


i am...left behind
i am...lost...

End Stream of Conciousness<\\~