What's wrong with me dammit

Why can't i have one decent relationship.

Can anyone tell me what i am doing wrong?

*sigh* It's God's plan and i know i can't fight it...it's just that sometimes, i feel really, really, lonesome. I ask myself why, and i reminisce a lot, especially about those if i had only scenarios.

It just bugs me how almost everyone and their neighbors has a bf/gf and i don't have one. I'm jealous in a way, especially of those long timerz: 1 year + and still heading strong. A year is a long time, and for those who were able to spend an entire year with the person they care for it is a big deal. Add that to the fact that one year the have spent with their loved one is one year i spent alone. For people with high school sweethearts, that's four years i've spent alone. (not counting of course my short relationship during my junior year, but that was hardly love) Some people have it great, and others not so well. I belong in the second category of course.

Some guys have it, some guys just don't. My sentiments are that i just don't have anything to offer the opposite sex, at the least...offer them something that they would want anyway.

i might as well live in an all male society deprived of female contact, (no i am not gay) i am no use here.