I'm going to reinitiate my lent fasting again:.

it is important that i do this for the responsibilities that i have ahead of me are really magnanimous *sorry for the big word, thats the only adjective i could find in my head right now...

i need a lot of help on these tasks that i need to perform...
and as of late i have started to realize that i am far from ready from accomplishing any of them...

i am not ready as in i am not experienced, not learned, not in that state of mind... yet

this is my decision and i will carry it out and see that i will do what i HAVE to do...

...and i'm going to pray over another decision which is closely involved with this fast...

lately there's been a huge distraction goin on in my life...
it's not a bad distraction at all... i enjoy being distracted by her,
but sometimes it's too much of a distraction...

i must leave it for now... because this path i need to walk carries no baggage...
i will fail in my tasks if i have to look back...

i will pray to God that i am doin the right thing...
or else he shows me what i need to do...

this is it...
my final stand...

i will miss the fun times... but i need to do this thing first
maybe if u know what i'm doin... u'll understand

maybe you won't even care, and that is another situation that i'm trying to watch for...
at any rate...take care