.:stream of consciousness:.

Have i changed much over this year...
it seems i've outgrown my shoes again (metaphorically)

with each and every new experience that i have
and each new friend i come in contact with
a part of my life seems to stop fitting with everyday normal tradition

i for one am not an advocate of change
in truth i absolutely fear it...

new situations...unknown situations... scary situations...
it's all too unstable for me
i like to know what's going on and how things are going to play out...

but since change occurs... nothing is ever safe anymore...

i dont even know where i belong sometimes
getting adjusted to the change is so slowgoing, that by the time i catch up with everything
change will happen again and i'll be left behind...

the problem is truly...
knowing where i want to be right now
and trying to make for that direction in life as quickly as possible...

the problem is, i don't know where that direction is...
too many roads, too many paths...
which one is the right one for me?

which one will bring the most contentment
and least regrets...

i have to choose carefully
and think with both my mind and my heart
lest each would decieve each other...


or maybe change is most felt when ur standing still in your growth...
when life is moving around you
and all ur doing is sitting in front of a computer screen typing away...

what impact does change have on a life that is in motion...
in fact perhaps its possible to have a life where change is the one trying to catch up with you instead...

I was browsing through a friends blog and i found an interesting theory about time and changes:.

time isn't tangible
its just an arbitrary name to "what happens between changes"
time is "the measurement of change".
if nothing changes, time does not pass


...theres so much more i can expand on this quote
but for now i'll leave it all to the readers