writers block

more like a mind block,
maybe it's early in the morning... but no productive thoughts are coming out of my mind at all
and at this rate its almost hard for me to be cohesive and think straight....

i have two finals today...
the quote of the moment is
i'm so done with school
before school was ever done with me

"today for you tomorrow for me"

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and still no real good thoughts coming from me...
it's not from the lack of things to think about
but for the inability to sort a lot of jumbled thoughts in my head


i wish i had a time machine...
again i would take it back to the same place where i've always taken it...
my senior year in high school

and im thinking of ******** again...
she was the one i always think about at times like this...
to see how much i progressed in my maturity

that i had met someone so right, but at the wrong time...
i always wished that maybe my relationship with her would have worked out...

but i understand how it was impossible for me at that time back then, and i think... well what about now... what if i meet her again?
will i be the same person that i was when we stopped talking
or have i changed

has she changed...
its usually the one who was left behind that always remembers the relationship more
it's easy to say that i hardly believe that she thinks twice about me in her day...

but it goes to show maybe things were better of this way...
and thus ergo that is the way of my life...

and maybe it shouldnt be...
always the right person at the wrong time
and when will it ever be... well this is the right time...

patience and dedication... and someday
when im on my own... and more accountable for my own life...
when nothing is given to me easily anymore

maybe that day... i'll find her again...
or another jennifer but really... how much do i miss her...
three years...

three fateful years... all documented here in my journal...

theres only us
theres only this
forget regret or life is yours to miss
no other road
no other way
no day but today