dear God because my security lies in you

hallo there, it's 2 am -- and i'm blogging haha

anyways what do i want to share with you today? im doing okay so far in this third week of school, time moves fast after all the hard work and long hours. and i am stronger than i thought... although i worry that there might be a limit and that i might break sooner or later...

but if that happens... allthose people who count on me, won't they be disappointed... not only disappointed but the dreams we dreamed and the wishes we wished... if we wished them together and i were to fail them... so i can't; you know i can't lose.

if people trust in me i must trust in myself... but let it be known that i want the Lord to lead me... for if he alone can guide me, i would see us in safe hands. let the trust not fall on me alone -- but on our Lord...

and let me struggle for that one goal alone, accept the sweet suffering... for us --
i will not fail, because that would mean failing you... and i can't do that... because i sincerely care

i do for all my friends -- this is my commitment, who else will carry us if i can't...

i can't be a child anymore -- i need to be accountable