rihanna is okaaay

okay she's not ugly anymore, i was just being mean --
shes kinda cute with bangs...

so anyways wow i haven't written here in a while
right now:. i'm just waiting for joyce to come over and pick me up
later:. psych/mental health clinical (>_<) and work (O_o) and possibly study (hopefully)

things are hard lately... i reflect on my life these past 21 years and saw how long i've wanted to remain a kid, in innocence, in lack of responsibilities... it's a cultureshock really... holding a job and working as a student nurse in a hospital...

sometimes i feel like i can't do it... and then i think how i should have been more prepared for this kind of life... haha... but i was spoiled when i was younger... my mom wouldnt allow me to work... except at home where i did my best keeping the house clean... but the pressures of responsibility still kinda waned...

i don't know what to make of it. sometimes theres good days and some times there are bad days... and most of all there are terrible i want to go home and jump into my warm bed and cry days... because hey thats a comfort zone right?

and most of all theres you... the polar opposite of those days... thinking about you randomly through the day kind of helps me through; i think of us and the long road ahead... if i hadnt been blessed to come into ur life where would we be today...

oh well, help me grow... and i'll be there for you, and we can grow together on this same road... if at least we could be the best of friends then that's enough for me