can a good boyfriend have doubts?

not doubts as in the future of the relationship -- but doubts specificially for himself...

wouldnt a good boyfriend need to be accountable to both himself and his partner?

im scared... maybe sometimes i'm not good enough to be boyfriend material... that our relationship will suffer because of me -- if one depends on me and i am not dependable because of my doubts...

sometimes i think i'm not ready...

=P

sometimes i dont know what being ready is?

im just worried perhaps -- i wont be good enough =P

and this irrational fear... is the downfall itself

the lack of confidence that makes me undependable -- true enough... how can i feel dependable in the first place.... where can i find the confidence in the first place...

how will i know if im going to mess up....

if i've never been taught to love

i need to turn to God more --- he shall bring me through it

and he shall bring me to it

this is humility... this i understand

this i have faith in...

and God shall have faith in me...