everything has been hectic as of lately...
too much excitement for meeh as i think about it...

for once school isn't the greatest source of my stress these days...
i find my college mildly amusing at times.

I have recently started dancing again...
i am currently in the process of dancing in three routines

one is a duet with my friend april (oh no...i've seen the tapes and i realize that it's not going to be a pleasant experience, i need a mirror dammit)

one is with my friends chris and erik at a talent show at gcc

and another one is at the same talent show with my friends nino and sean at gcc
(of course that we are all dancing in the other routine together, i categorized us here specifically as it is something that we have been ourselves striving for)

and those two dances has an audition this saturday
and we are hardly prepared...
but if there's a will there's a way

i will support this to my utmost potential and i have full faith that our hard work will come to fruition

april's dance is in late april:.
hopefully we can attract more dancers with the tape i gave her today:.
if not...good luck to us...

i wont let her down though, i promised her a performance at her school
i'm damn sure going to make it a good one! (i'll make sure she's proud of what we do and not embarassed... plenty opportunities to embarass her in other ways!)

I miss my old friends that i have made from dancing with the glendale drill team from last year:.
I miss them at comps, and i realized that i would give anything to go back in time and make more of my drill team career.

i am going to regret that i am not going to be able to go to nationals this year...
it seems that usa nationals is the same day as SOL youth rally...
but i am not as distraught:.
there are plenty more opportunities to see my friends...
and perhaps this is the way things are meant to be:.

at any rate i am as nostalgic as ever:
which i have to adjust to as i grow older...
i do love my life right now
i do love the new people i meet,
the new experiences;

i do miss the past, but i do not try to dwell in it.

i miss girls who stole my heart,
but thanks to them my heart has only gotten stronger
and my mind wiser:

i look back at all my regrets,
and they have thought me so much...

they have made me more cautious and life sure has changed these days:

i worry about different things...
worrying about the present... and the near future and all it's mystery...