Listening to slow jams with the drizzling of the rain on the window...

It's one of my most favourite soothing things to do...
some would prefer not to be placed in such depressing circumstances i do believe, but i really dont feel sad..

it makes me happy... listening to all these songs of love
and makes me happy and i forget how lonely these nights get sometime...

i had my first talk at hoj today...
it was a great experience... my friends were super supportive man...
just them being there gave me strength and courage
and my buddy freda was praying for me to do a good job
so i would like to thank her as well...

it was a good first experience for me...
i would of course like to do better next time
but i have to keep growin in the spirit...

i was talking to a friend earlier before she had to go to sleep about the fine line between flirting and friendship...
it was odd that a girl would have to worry bout such a detail...
because in my experience its the girls who have so much control over the two and it's the guys who have a hard time having to decide which is which...

in essence a girl can be as friendly as she wants
and it wont be considered flirting... until she actually likes that guy
so that means its entirely on the girl if she's flirting
and poor guys start to believe they are when they aren't and they feel really sheepish when they find out otherwise
and they can't blame anyone but themselves that they liked a person whom they assumed liked them back...

haha thats really unjust in my eyes... but what can i do when girls hold that much power...

i've decided to see if i can turn the tables on these females and act in the same fashion...
ill pursue friendship till the very end...
so my flirting won't be considered anything else but being nice...
if i desist from liking neone then i wont be caught between that fine line between flirting and friendship
and all one will think of me is a friendly guy...

woe is the gurl that assumes that i start to like her though
because according to the rule... i'm just being friendly after all aren't i

unles i like the girl back
and that is information that only i will be aware of...

that's kinda shady to have to play the same tricks that these girls play...
but i see it more as a defense mechanism to help me cope with getting led on in the past... numerous times...

yah haha, its been a lot... about time i learned a new trick or two...