dear blogger...

i tried to get a peaceful sleep last night
and i believe i got most of it
but i was still kept up beyond way too late than i expected...
i feel very nocturnal...

but its okay im up at 7am currently and i'm functioning well...

and i have an hour to get ready for mass...

any things for me to do today...
well lets see...
im hella hardcore procrastination on that spirit games email that i have to send out to remind the communities that theres a meeting the following monday

(ack)

im not really good at these emails...
i feel like the information necessary to provide is always incomplete
and at other points... i feel like this mode of media rarely reaches people...
if it were up to me... i would call every one up of those people that i'm going to invite to the meeting and let them know myself...

yes... why not i just do taht...

oh well... that would be simpler and harder in a way...
but i digress... important note is tell people and remind people about meeting next week
important important important... because this might as well be my last meeting with the kiddos...

spirit games was fun...
and tiring
and a blessing
and now its someone elses blessing...

i hope its ten times as better than previous years...
and continues in that fashion...

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i went to an adult lss yesterday at incarnation...
i felt led to be there...
especially with so many burning questions in my heart that i needed to reassure myself...
i heard a couple of talks...
the receiving God's gift and the talk about growth and transformation
both were pretty good... really different from what i was used to hearing from youth/young adult lss talks...

they seemed to both be letting me know that my take on my beliefs needs to be constantly updated... and i want to continue to listen... yet more as well...

i want to listen... and i want to understand
i feel that in my current situations... i talk and talk and talk myself...
but im rarely completly understood... and i'm always losing arguements...

losing arguements on whose points that were argued against me were the same basis of my arguements as well

lost? well lets say... i would get into discussions about certain topics... and what i'd say isn't what they would hear... and i would end up on the short side of the discussion because ... ionno...

if in my heart they could understand my words...
that i speak... then maybe
they could find the truth in the ideas i speak...

yah? no? prolly?

words are futile compared to actions anyway...
if i live my life as a better christian... they can misunderstand my words...
but know my heart from my actions

maybe thats the real key

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