it rained too hard today...

but maybe it was a sign that i should rest...

but i've been resting too much lately... so i deem this the last day i will rest...
and as a matter of fact... last day i have an obscenely unnatural sleep schedule...

i want to sleep at night and be awake during the day...

but yea... may it not rain anymore... because being home, being lazy sucks...
i want to be more productive and i will be more productive...
even if i have to be cooped up home cleaning my house or something...

anything but video games and internet...
which i would spend my hours as a vegatable...

at least if i do this... i would have more interesting things to write
and regale my friends with...

currently listening to Monica - For you i will

very nostalgic song in a way...
i dont even know why... but when i listen to it...
i can think of times of when i've met people that i can relate the song too...
just the side of me that wants to be there for everyone...

HAH... its not nostalgia after all...
but rather... nvm

i got to start being more productive
because being idle causes you to think to much
and enter into a dreaded state of "paralysis through analysis"
where life is hard to live... when u think too much...
when ur busy and working... u cant spend too much time to analyze everything
and the time flies by like nothing...
very well...

but spending time at home cooped up... bored
nothing to entertain you but your thoughts...
is sad...

at least i did one positive thing today...
i went to mass... praise God...